This article by Vaneetha Risner “Weakness and Failure Will Build Your Faith” posted on DesiringGod.org spoke to me. There is a link to the article below, also a couple quotes I plan to refer to from time to time as reminder about what being blessed truly is and what it is not.
“Trust God. He is going to use everything in your life to draw you closer to him. Don’t waste your suffering, for it will be the making of your faith. And one day, as your faith becomes sight, you will be grateful for it all.” Vaneetha Risner
“You are holding onto meaningless things, and you are believing in yourself for the wrong reasons. Stop judging your life by your achievements or “blessings,” whether material or relational or reputational, because none of them will last. What you now consider blessings will be taken away, and when they are, you will discover that being blessed is deeper and more lasting than you can imagine.” Vaneetha Risner
https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/weakness-and-failure-will-build-your-faith